Ambulanse begins with a story narrated by an
paramedic who is haunted by the memory of a woman he was too late to save many
years ago on his first day on the job. He is also haunted by the idea that his
wife might some day leave him, and by the thought that his young son will one
day be alone and won't know how to cope. "Hold on," he says,
"the important thing is just to hold on." Until the ambulance
arrives, or just in general. Life is a matter of not giving up. But he's
concerned about Andreas, his son, because he and his wife have never given the
boy any cause for anxiety. Each night the boy comes into their room and waits
for one of them to wake. They invite him into their bed. They've made him feel
so safe and secure that he is totally unequipped for the loneliness of life.
Little Andreas thinks there will always be someone there for him.
So, when the paramedic and his son go to a cafe
together on the way back from the cinema, the ambulance worker disappears to
the toilet and doesn't come out. He leaves the little boy at the table and sits
in a cubicle for over twenty five minutes. He sits and wonders if the little
boy will be panicking, crying, or just frozen in silent terror. Or maybe he'll just be
sitting there at the table, singing happily, secure in the knowledge that Daddy
will return. Finally the narrator snaps out of it, gets angry with himself for
testing the child and comes back out of the toilet. Of course, the little boy
is nowhere to be seen.
This moment of horror doesn't last long. The man finds
his child sitting at another table, singing to and chatting with an older man,
who is writing something on a piece of paper. The child was never for a moment
concerned. They make their way home and neither of them says much about the
incident, since for the child it amounted to little more than a happy
distraction. Later that night the ambulance man is called out to an emergency
at the same flat where he found the dead woman on his first night on the job.
In that flat he finds the man from the cafe. The man is still breathing. It's
just a matter of his holding on. And so they drive into the night.
In this first story the groundwork is already laid for
the themes and connections of the book. Each of the stories here is narrated by
a man. All of the stories relate in some way or another to loneliness. The
ambulance from this first story drives through many of the others, until near
the end of the book we get the story of the man lying on his back inside, speeding
towards the hospital.
There are various other connections between each of
the 11 short narratives in Ambulanse.
So many in fact that I would argue this book is actually an unconventional
novel, even if it was published as a short story collection. For example,
several of the characters find themselves sitting up late at night watching
someone calling himself Las
Vegas trying to win credits
on a remotely activated TV gambling game, while text messages from lonely
teenagers scroll across the bottom of the screen. One narrator joins the game
on a whim, calling himself Caesar's
Palace, and this leads to a brief text-message communication between two
stories. Nokia phones are another connecting factor, as is Sarah, an anorexic
15 year old who is mentioned by characters in at least two stories before she
appears in person; first as the daughter of one narrator and, a little later,
as the love interest of another.
The story in which Sarah features most centrally
concerns a teenage boy who can't manage to rescue a practice dummy from the
bottom of the swimming pool in swimming class. He needs to do it so that he can
get a passing grade in Physical Education and go to the same sixth form as the
troubled anorexic girl he is in love with. In his frustration he breaks into
the leisure centre one night and uses a rock to sink himself to the bottom of
the pool, where he kisses the dummy and has a conversation with her. It is the
closest he can get to kissing Sarah, who was the last person to give the dummy
CPR.
This theme of stunted communication runs all through
the book. A man trapped in a collapsed building uses his Nokia to play Snake instead of ringing his family for
help. Sarah's therapist spends his evenings in sessions with a fully automated
and extremely limited online psychiatrist. "I'm not doing any
progress," he types. "How long have you not been doing any
progress?" comes the reply. At least two characters have almost given up
on communicating all-together and are more or less house bound. Neither of them
is quite sure why. And the last, perhaps most beautiful story in the book
concerns an old man ascending in a air-balloon into the heavens, where he hopes
to be reunited with his deceased wife. He talks to her memory the whole way up
and drops photographs of their time together down onto the city.
Johan Harstad was born in 1979, which means he is two
years older than me and he published this book when he was in his early 20s.
What struck me most when I was reading it was that it was a book I would have
wanted to write at exactly the time he wrote it, except that I didn't have
anything like the skills to pull it off. Reading this book, you know that
you're reading someone who got their first mobile phone around the time they
got their first serious girlfriend, who listened to Radiohead as a teenager and
believed deeply in the alienation of millennial life. This is also someone who
was playing with form and trying to link disparate elements together into a
whole, in the way PT Anderson did in Magnolia (or David Mitchell did, to a more
half-arsed degree, in his early books). For all these reasons I would say that
Harstad articulated a moment in time here, a moment which has not yet been
reappropriated as fashionably retro: the moment just after the 21st century
began.
Despite the fact I'm claiming Harstad expressed in
2002 something many people his age wanted to, it's also true that few of us had
yet developed the skills for the job, and as a result this book feels peerless.
The closest touchstone I can think of as a writer is Douglas Coupland (who I
will defend against any comers—just try me) but Harstad doesn't have the
observational irony born of Coupland's generation gap, and his world is
somewhat weirder. Harstad is also more experimental with his prose. He works
dialogue into his stories without using quotation marks, writes in a style that
echoes speech and uses repetition in long sentences, broken up with commas, to
build hypnotic, melancholy monologues.
The only downside is that Ambulanse has never yet been translated to
English. There are other Harstad books available in translation though,
including the book he wrote next: Buzz Aldrin, What Happened to You in All the Confusion? There's a good chance I'll come back with a review of that in
the new year.